Tanner is healing my heart...

My family has been hit hard with sadness this past two weeks.  On January 10th, my Aunt Jean who has been very sick for a long time passed away.  Aunt Jean was my Nana's sister and Nana had been taking care of her for almost two years.  The day of her funeral, January 15th 2011 my Poppy past away.  Poppy had surgery on New Years Eve and they found he had colon and liver cancer and had had it for many years.  He was at home and he was surrounded by his loved ones when he passed.  The morning of his funeral I had my 23 week check up on Tanner and my sugar test (which was not as bad as I thought it would be, but it did make me very sick).  We listened to his little heart beat and I just melted.  I am so in love with this little man.  I know it sounds strange but concentrating on him, and my love for him is healing my heart.  I am greatly saddend that he will never meet his Poppy or Aunt Jean.  Poppy was so excited about him.  Everytime I saw him, even in all his pain when he was in hospital, he would ask if I brought his Grandson and he would rub my belly.  My Daddy is having a hard time and I hope and pray that Tanner is healing his heart too.  I honestly believe that he is.  These are the most recent pictures I have of my Poppy.  They were taken at our wedding almost two years ago.

Christmas 2010

We had a wonderful Christmas this year.  Santa was way too good to me.  Tanner even got some things from his Nona and Popa.  We are so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family.  oh and we were very excited to say that we finially figured Christmas out this year...With my brother and I both being married and needing to be so many places at one time, its so hard to get everyone together at one time. without being rushed to be somewhere else and it was very nice to have everyone there.  I can;t wait to see what Christmas will be like next year with Tanner here to enjoy it with us...

                                                                   Tanners gifts

                                 Mom, Dad, my brother Kyle, Sister-in-law Sara, Jon and Me

                                                          me, Christmas Eve...19 1/2 weeks

                                            My Mom had theses made...everybody got one =]